God Wants You to Be Free
God has been so good to me, that it’s hard to put it into words.
If you haven’t read my last post, I want to encourage you to do that before you continue here. It’s in this post that I talk about how I found freedom from fear. I’ve lived almost 40 years on this earth, living to please others, and not being all that God called me to be, because I’ve been so bound by fear.
Not only that, but I just can’t imagine all of the blessings that I’ve missed out on. Instead of facing the Lord with my arms wide open, it’s like I’ve been walking around this earth with my hands on my head, just waiting for the next attack. I’ve been trying to block out the fear with my own abilities, unable to see that God has always gone before me, keeping me safe. You can’t receive a blessing with your hands closed!
I want to share with you what happened on my trip with my husband (you can also find more on this in my last post).
This is the first time I’ve flown in almost 20 years, because all that time, I allowed fear to rule. I wanted to have the Lord’s perfect peace on this trip, but let me tell you, Satan won’t give up without a fight. On the way to New Orleans, I was so nervous. I couldn’t get my heart rate out of the 90’s. I fought back tears as I thought about the fact that I had just left my younger boys for the very first time. They are almost 4 and 6 years old.
I still had those “What if” thoughts that I mentioned in my last post. So I prayed harder, “God, please give me peace about this. I want to be free! I know that you’re with me, help me to feel You.” Once we made it to New Orleans, I had a much greater peace about flying. The first two flights really weren’t bad. I knew that I’d be okay on the way home the next day.
We had an amazing night out that night. It was so refreshing having some time away with my husband. We walked the streets of New Orleans during Mardi Gras. The weather was okay for awhile, but then it started to rain. I didn’t mind the rain though. It took me back to when I was a little kid who enjoyed playing out in the rain. We had a wonderful dinner where we made some new friends. Then after dinner, we went to see my husband’s favorite band, Need to Breathe, perform an acoustic concert. Afterwards, we got to go backstage and meet the band.
Here’s a few pictures from our time in New Orleans.
Before I knew it, it was time to get back on a plane. I was ready to come home to my babies (who were all sick, by the way).
We had a layover in North Carolina. By this time, I felt so much more calm than I did the day before. I actually got out a book and started reading during the flight. And it’s there that I finally felt God speaking to me. The instant that fear tried to take over again, I felt God say to me, “You have an unfinished mission that I need you to fulfill.” He also told me that I would feel turbulence, but I would have complete peace about it. I didn’t really feel any turbulence during that flight, so I was unsure if I really heard from Him.
As we flew into Charlotte, North Carolina for our connecting flight, I felt complete peace about getting home safely.
So here we were, on our last leg of the journey. My, how much God has stretched me!
We boarded the plane and started making our way to the runway. The rain had been coming down slightly, but now it was picking up. We sat on the runway for quite a bit before the captain came on the intercom and announced that we needed to go back to our gate to get more fuel. We were being rerouted due to the storm, and we wouldn’t have had enough fuel to make it on our new path.
The battle in my mind had started again.
I knew now, that the turbulence God had mentioned, would be on this last flight. But I thought I’d be okay, because He said I’d have complete peace. We sat in the airplane for a total of 2 hours before it finally took off. I was nervous about flying during a storm, and we were also in a much smaller airplane. I have bad memories of how I felt on a smaller plane almost 20 years ago.
Soon after takeoff, I started reading my book again. God gave me SO MUCH REVELATION during this last flight.
Sometimes, it’s the scariest moments of life, where you hear His voice the most.
It was a very choppy ride, but I looked around and noticed people (and at times my own husband) sleeping! I thought to myself, “Now that’s real peace. I want that.” I was really nervous as the plane bounced up and down, but I kept reminding myself that God said I wasn’t finished here yet.
Once we finally rose above the clouds, the sun was shining so brightly in my face, that I had to close the shades a little. At that exact moment, I read, “The path of the righteous gets brighter and brighter.” I just smiled. I knew that was meant for me. It wasn’t just for that exact moment. My whole world has gotten brighter and brighter, because I finally stepped out of the box that I’ve been living in.
God poured out his favor and blessings onto my life, and I finally said yes to Him, instead of allowing fear to hold me back as it used to.
Because I said yes, it’s like the floodgate has been opened up. The Lord has been downloading so much stuff into my spirit. I can’t wait to share it all with you and with every person that He puts on my heart to share my testimony with.
He wants you to be free!
Do you want the freedom that I have experienced? You have to determine in your mind that you will stop making excuses. Stop allowing Satan to have control over your life. Don’t waste the rest of your life being bound by fear, anxiety or depression. Your life will follow your thoughts. Determine right now that enough is enough!
Don’t let age be an excuse. I’m almost forty years old. I won’t let that stop me. I’ve made up my mind that I will live the rest of my life with my head held high and my hands open to receive whatever God wants to give me.
This is the best year of my life, and it can be the same for you! I promise that you don’t want to miss what all God is speaking to me for YOU! If you don’t want to miss it, be sure to subscribe to my blog. You can also follow me on Facebook. Just click here.
Be blessed my friends!
I’m Amanda and a Christian homeschooling Mom to 4 awesome boys from ages 4 to 20.
I have an amazing, supportive husband, a passion for encouraging others in their faith, and helping new homeschoolers find their way through their journey.
Thank you for stopping by and getting to know me better.