A MOM IN BATTLE
Are you a mom in battle? Do you feel so overwhelmed with your life that you just can’t even function anymore? I’m here to encourage you and to let you know that this is just a season, and you WILL rise above it!
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How do I know that things will get better? Well for one, I’ve been there! And secondly, I trust that all things work together for good for those who love Christ.
Maybe you’re in a situation where you can’t possibly think of any good that can come of it, but remember that God’s Word is true. He knows our future and He’s setting us up for a good one, if you will just hang tight and lean into Him. Trust Him! While you’re wondering how He’s going to work things out, He’s working behind the scenes, causing everything to come together for your good.
Tonight I stumbled upon this old post that I wrote a couple of years ago. I never published it because I was just too ashamed. I was just downright overwhelmed with life. I had so many issues that I just didn’t even know where to begin. I was definitely a mom in battle!
As I read this, a part of me wants to cry because my mind can instantly go back to that place. Yet, a larger part of me wants to rejoice because of all that the Lord has done for me.
My mind is a whirlwind. I’ve been fighting so many spiritual battles lately that I don’t even know where to begin. Since this is BibleMOMMA, maybe I’ll start with that area of my life; being a mom. I love my children with all of my heart, but Satan is really trying to step in and stir things up. Even though I know it is him that is causing problems, I feel like I cave under his pressure.
Time and time again lately, I find myself asking God to forgive me for yelling at my children. I just snap and I get so angry over stupid things. I know I’m leaving scars on their precious hearts, but in the moment, I can’t stop myself. Stupid ANGER! The Bible says to be angry but do not sin. I feel like when I yell at my kids, that’s definitely sin. Why can’t I control my stupid mouth?
I believe that my anger stems from a lack of sleep because I never get really good sleep. I now have a monitor in the bedroom of my two youngest sons, so I hear every little sound they make. Of course, I couldn’t sleep without a monitor because then fear would take control of my mind. My husband tosses and turns, I have to go to the bathroom, I stay up late to have some “me” time, I just can’t get comfortable; you name it, it keeps me awake. I wrote down a Bible verse to help in this area and even though I don’t feel like I’m getting great results, I will keep professing it before I go to bed.
When I lie down I will not be afraid; Yes, I will lie down and my sleep will be sweet. ~ Proverbs 3:24
The tiredness and the anger hit me on almost a daily basis anymore. Can you guess what the result is from experiencing this everyday? It’s the feeling of worthlessness! I know, I know. It’s all lies from Satan. But it’s so hard fighting this battle. It doesn’t have to be that way, but somehow I keep allowing it.
I read my Bible almost daily, I pray, I cry out to God. I want to cry real tears, but they just won’t come. Isn’t that strange? As bad as I feel about things, I just can’t get out that good, cleansing cry that I feel like I have to have.
Another area that I always seem to struggle with is maintaining getting my house to look clean. There is no maintaining. I have yet to see the bottom of the laundry basket. There are always dirty dishes in our house. Even if we eat out, somehow dishes just magically appear on the table, the counters, and all throughout the house. Baby toys are strung all over every single floor. My table is a catch all. I can’t keep up with the papers that manage to sneak into my house and explode when I’m not looking. My bed is never made (no time for that when the baby wakes me up and I have to immediately take care of him).
I guess by now you get the picture. My house is a mess! And it DRIVES ME NUTS! I would do something about it, but I’m always too tired! Or I’m taking care of someone else. *sigh*
I’m so embarrassed to write this post, but hopefully someone out there will read it and think, “Thank God I’m not alone”.
You are not alone! And you can overcome all of this just like I have. I’m happy to say that God has truly set me free, and He can do the same for you! I’ve been freed from anger, fear, anxiety, fatigue, and so much more! I’m still a mom in battle, but now I wear the full armor of God and I walk bravely towards all that He has for me.
It takes time (unless the Lord moves suddenly, as He often does). Keep pressing forward. Keep crying out to Him. Try your best to get in at least a little bit of Bible reading and prayer every single day, even if it’s just a few minutes.
Here’s one of my posts about how I went from a screaming mom, to a more calm mom.This might be a good place to start, once you get in some alone time with God.
There are also two things that have helped me tremendously with keeping our home organized and clean.
- The Lord has been pressing on my heart to get rid of a bunch of our things. I wrote about that yesterday. You can read more about that by clicking here. Before this journey to declutter, I didn’t realize how much value I placed on things. Now, with each item that leaves our home, I feel like a little bit of weight is being lifted from my chest. It’s an amazing feeling!
- The second thing that has made such a difference for me is the “Clean Your House Planner” by Motivated Moms. If you’re like me and you want to clean your house, but you have NO IDEA WHERE TO START, then THIS is where you need to go. I use the half size weekly pages. It’s basically a checklist of things to do every single day, and then extra chores for each day of the week. With this list, it’s like I have someone to tell me exactly what I need to do (and I can’t argue with them). I try not to be hard on myself when I fall behind. It’s best to just pick up on a new day if you do fall behind.With this system, my house went from chaos to calm in a matter of days! It can seem like hard work in the beginning, but soon enough, you’ll memorize all of the daily tasks and they ‘ll be a lot easier because you’re doing it daily. It’s a lot easier to clean off your counters daily, than only doing it once you’re feeling totally overwhelmed by the mess.
If you feel like a mom in battle who could use some prayers, I would be honored to pray for you. Please feel free to send me an e-mail at Biblemomma99@gmail.com, or message me on my Facebook page, Bible Momma.
Be blessed my friends!
I’m Amanda and a Christian homeschooling Mom to 4 awesome boys from ages 4 to 19.
I have an amazing, supportive husband, a passion for encouraging others in their faith, and helping new homeschoolers find their way through their journey.
Thank you for stopping by and getting to know me better.